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5/15/2015

Pregnancy Plans Update

Well... I'm pregnant! As most people know. I know you're thinking, wow that was fast. But I had to write this blog (through the nausea and reoccurring cold) to clear something up.  It turns out in fact, I did NOT have a miscarriage. I know, I know. It's alot to wrap your head around. I'm still kind of in shock.  So let me try to briefly tell you what happened. 

Feb 15 I took a pregnancy test. One of the lines was faint so I took another the next day.  Yep, pregnant! I was so excited!  Then that Friday, my period started (feb 21st). And I was devistated. I prayed and beleived everything would be fine!  I was told by the nurse in my doctor's office that I should wait a few days and took another pregnancy test.  If it was negative I miscarried or had a chemical pregnancy (egg fertilized but did not implant completely). If it was positive, come in as soon as possible.  The problem with that, we had been speaking with and negotiating a deal with a broker for health insurance for over a month and still no plan. So I tried to go to a clinic and they wouldn't see me. My only option was the ER but I decided to just wait the five days. Most excruciating wait ever. I took the pregnancy test March 2nd and it read negative. I still kind of felt pregnant but within a couple days the nausea, and other symptoms went away completely. I said yeah, I'm not pregnant anymore. I felt like I wasn't and the test confirmed it.  I grieved and moved on. Didn't doubt God but just prayed that everything would be okay. Started my plan to get really healthy...then the nausea came back! Within two weeks. So I just waited on my period to start again...

And I waited...

Still waiting....

It just never came. Then something did come; my insurance card. Ding, ding! So, I tested again but had to wait a few weeks because of course I was newly pregnant. I thought, wow! That happened so fast! I took a test 5 days after my missed period on March 26th and sure enough, it was positive. Yay! I went to the doctor about a month later (because my doc stays booked and I had to wait until I was at least five weeks). I get on the table expecting to hear 5 weeks or something close and he says, "9 weeks 3 days. No miscarriage. Who told you that?" Your nurse! Lol. 

It still doesn't all make sense to me. But I know many women have had periods that first month. I'm glad I didnt lose the baby. My heart goes out to all the moms that have. The pain I felt and the tears I cried at the thought of losing the baby were so hurtful. Losing a child at any point is difficult. 

And God is amazing. It's crazy how our body works. I had been feeling pregnant for a whole week (beginning feb 8) and that's why I decided to test. But where my due date falls, it says I concvieded on feb 17th but I tested on feb 15th so idk! I'm just thankful.  And I'm glad I kept the faith. I guess all that I've been through has helped me to never doubt God.  I wouldn't let my mind go to the why me phase it always wants to go. I just poured my heart out and expected him to fix it and he did! 

I'm feeling excited and can't wait to see our new edition coming this Fall! 

~Cam

2 comments:

Darlene Rene said...

Thank you for sharing that pain to victory story with us. We may not know, but God ALWAYS knows. Soooooooo glad you held onto Him for comfort. :)

Melisse D said...

Well ain't all that a story!!! Let's pray nothing else odd happens along this pregnancy & everyone stays healthy!
Congratulations friend!
-Melisse